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My Anniversary, summer vacation and other good stuff

2011-06-04T12:18:00.000-04:00

I haven't blogged for a long time because I have been very busy. Our anniversary was on the 27th of May. Danny and I went out on a date... you know, without the kids and everything. We went out to eat and then went to see Pirates of the Caribbean: On stranger tides. We were going to go out to dinner at the Melting Pot in Lexington but i decided I would rather have a nice steak dinner and see a movie. We ate at Reno's in Morehead, a little closer to home - so we wouldn't be wasting all our time traveling. Plus, The Melting Pot is alot more expensive than what we did . I really enjoyed our time out together and that is the most important part- being together and celebrating our love.

Summer vacation is here. I love summer vacation. The girls can go out back this summer and swim in the pool. Honestly I haven't been this excited for summer vacation in over a year.I am back in the country. It is so nice to be able to enjoy nature again.Speaking of enjoying nature, the girls are already begging to go out and get in the pool and play in the yard. It isn't even noon yet and they want to be outside. But i can't blame them, we didn't have a yard worth playing in in Lex. I want them to spend as much time as possible in the clean, country air... Now where did I put that sunblock...

O and I've been enjoying the adventures in parenting of 2 bluejays and their babies. I got to witness the first attempts to fly of the baby birds. I was thrilled but I was afraid to move and go get the camera or I would have pictures of the babies. I'm gonna miss them when they are gone.

Mixed feelings

2011-05-10T18:20:00.000-04:00

Katie has been going to the Carl D. Perkins Vocational Training Center for 2 months now. I am very proud of her for taking such a dramatic step and making huge progress. I praise God that she is happy and flourishing in that environment, I know this is the best possible situation for her. She is making friends , learning life skills and preparing for college. These are steps I never thought she would take 2 years ago. When she first went to CDPVTC , she made us promise to pick her up every weekend so she could come home to visit. Then she decided to come home every other weekend so she could participate in trips and functions like dances and talent shows. Now she has called and said she can't come home for her sister's birthday party this weekend . she has been gone for 3 weeks and she is loving every minute of it. I am torn between being happy for her and missing her terribly. My heartaches but I suppose I'll have to get used to it because the child I have devoted my life to has moved on. Please don't get me wrong I love Ashley just as much. But when you have an autistic child the level of attention and devotion necessary to care and protect that child becomes such a large part of your life. I enjoy everyday with Ashley but I feel like I should be doing more... the constant vigilance is not necessary while Katie is away and I feel like there is a some kind of gap in my day. I miss Katie like crazy and I just don't know how to acclimate to this new situation. Katie has matured by leaps and bounds... she is an adult now and enjoying her independence. I'm afraid that I might drive Ashley berserk trying to find something to do with myself.

Ashley's birthday and mother's day

2011-05-09T07:47:00.000-04:00

Ten years ago, I got the best Mother's Day present a mom could get. Ashley was born 2 days before Mother's Day in 2001. Most usually we celebrate her birthday on the weekend of Mother's Day ... We clump it together into one big celebration. But this weekend , Ashley was sick. And we couldn't have her birthday party. But that didn't stop us from giving her the present we bought for her, and taking her out to eat. We got her a swimming pool and 3 movies (the Twilight movies). Now comes the task of setting it up and maintaining all the chemicals. I did not know what I was getting into... WOW. But I am looking forward to climbing into that pool with my girls and playing all summer long. Well ok so I'll be floating and catching sun more than I will be "playing". But it will be fun .

For Mother's Day, Danny got me 2 treasure boxes, a mailbox stamp holder and a sea turtle. That is what he bought for me at Crackle barrel , Angel. He told me about calling you to tell you not to mention that your sister saw him. I love all those treasure boxes and I hope he gets me one for every holiday/special day. But some of them are kind of expensive. I guess i should have taken pics of Ashley's and my presents but I am too ornery for that . Ok I guess I'll go do some laundry now before it is time to mow the lawn. Every day is Mother's Day and today is Mother's day to do some chores.

Hubby is sick

2011-04-28T07:40:00.000-04:00

Danny is sick again... still. I'm really worried about him. But today he is going to the doctor. He is rarely sick. When he does get sick, it lasts for 2 days at the most. This time, he has been sick for two WEEKS. He always takes such good care of me. I feel helpless that I can't take care of him. I can fetch and carry, do little things for him. But i can't make him feel better. It is very frustrating to see the one you love so sick and not be able to fix it. I hope the doctor can fix it. He is so miserable. I have a feeling that he might have the flu. He has been running a fever and his body aches and he throws up every morning and sometimes in the afternoon... maybe he's pregnant. I don't know what is going with him but I am very worried about him. It doesn't help that the weather has been crappy. When it is raining all day/week, he aches because of arthritis in his back and shoulders. I'll be in constant prayer for him today ... I just wish there was more that I could do.

So nice

2011-04-21T12:59:00.000-04:00

I had a wonderful birthday. I spent the day with my hubby. He had to go get a new smile from Morehead. He had broken his dentures til there was no fixing them. He has a gorgeous smile and now it is even brighter... like blinding. I got some presents for my birthday. I got a thermometer from my sister and Danny got 2 birds in buckets and a knife. I've carried a knife forever but since I lost my other one when we lived in Lex , I haven't had one to carry. We also went out to eat at the Mexican restaurant in town. It was all good. I took pics of my stuff except the knife. I saw no reason to take a pic of it. Looky...

She said I was old.

2011-04-20T07:50:00.000-04:00

Isn't that butterfly beautiful ?? It has graced my yard for 2 days. I just love watching the bees and butterflies in my yard. My ED says that is because I am old. I turned 36 today ,but I don't feel old. Some days , I do. But not today. I feel pretty and special and loved. I woke up to birthday wishes from my beloved hubby and my YD. DH said I could do anything I want to do today because it is my special day. Ummm OK. I want to go bungee jumping and I want to buy an all new wardrobe and... No really I would rather just have a nice quiet day with those that I love. I really wish I could have all my dear friends and family together But that isn't going to happen any time soon because of situations beyond our control. So I will be happy and thank God for all that I have because I am truly blessed. And I will keep a look out for more birds,bees, and butterflies - beautiful things like that.

Big ideals

2011-04-06T07:31:00.000-04:00

I thought I would get so much done this week ... like every other week lately. I had all these plans to Spring clean my house and finally get every box unpacked. I knew I couldn't do anything on Monday because we were taking Katie to Paintsville and that is a 2 hours drive , one way. What I didn't take into account was the effects driving/riding in a car has on the pinched nerve in my back. My legs hurt like I have ran a marathon. My back and hip hurts with shooting pains... even my fingers hurt. I can't sit, stand or lay with any comfort. So housework is out of the question for the most part. I can do some laundry and wash a few dishes. I might be able to sweep the wood chips from around the stove. But the major crap exodus I had planned has been put on hold til the pain recedes. I need to move furniture and piles of junk. I need to get the bathroom ready for remodeling. I need to heal so I can get all this work done. I also want to go to the tanning bed. I want to go for a walk every evening. And I want to do some yard work. I have a hard time calling what I do outside work . I love to mow, dig, plant flowers, even burning a brush pile gets my mojo to going. But for now I'm not doing a lot of anything except looking for relief.

Katie

2011-04-04T04:46:00.000-04:00

My eighteen -year -old daughter is autistic and bi-polar with psychotic episodes. I have never expected her to move out and do the adult thing on her own. She has a lot of problems and she needs help every day. I thought I was the only one that could possibly help her with the trials she faces every day. ( I have to admit that my hubby proved to me long ago that he is perfectly willing to help Katie with almost anything- the girl stuff is my ballgame though LOL) I expected to grow old with Katie living with me and Danny. And I had resigned myself to having a woman-child that forgot to take her meds because she was busy playing Pokemon or neopets or play station... But that was before we were told about the Carl Perkins center in Paintsville. It is a vocational rehabilitation center for young adults that are mentally and physically disabled. The center is a wonderful place with its own hospital attached to the complex. The people are understanding , intelligent and kind. It is also a last chance facility for children with problems that get into trouble with the law. And it is understood that everyone there has their own battles, everyone is equal. I suppose the only real difference in how they are enrolled is that the physically disabled kids live in assisted living, the mentally disabled are placed in the dorm where they can also be helped but have a sense of freedom , and the state wards (last-chance kids) are stay in their own wing. The state wards aren't allowed to go home on the weekends either but this place pus the emphasis on rehabilitation for these kids and their parents are welcome to visit and the counselors take them on special trips on the weekend , even if it is just a trip to Wal-mart to spend their allowance. Everyone has duties to perform. Some carry out the trash, or vacuum the halls, and some work in the food service. It is a wonderful program the teaches personal responsibility and life skills along with addressing the specific needs of the individual. They do OT,PT and all the personal therapy the student needs. They even have medical doctors and psychologists that live in house for most of the year .

I cannot express how excited I am that Katie has the opportunity to learn life skills , take college readiness courses and have others encourage her to live her own life. First they take the time to show Katie that she can do the things she needs to do to live on her own. They are even going to teach her to drive. Then she will choose a college readiness program that will eventually- only when she is ready- help her choose a college and a degree. And they will do 99% of her basic college courses there in-campus.
I wonder how long it will be before Katie is calling me to tell me that I won't be coming to pick her up on Friday because the counselors are doing something that weekend that she wants to participate in. Until then, though, I will be there every Friday afternoon ready to take her home til Sunday evening. It is a 2 hour drive and we will be doing it three times a week in most cases. But the Fam has agreed to help with those trips. I just thank God for this opportunity for Katie to expand her personal horizons.

This is Katie and she is officially a resident-student of the Carl Perkins vocational rehabilitation center...

Menopause

2011-03-30T04:03:00.000-04:00

I woke up at 2:30 this morning and I was covered , soaked in sweat. Hot flashes and night sweats are nothing new to me. I have been peri-menopausal for 3 years now. On a happy note, my doctor says the earlier your body starts going through the menopause motions , the Longer it takes for nature to run its course. In essence, I could be peri-menopausal for a long,long time. I don't relish that thought. On most days, I go about on my happy life journey with nary a thought about time marching along across and throughout my body. But there are times when I'd rather kiss a snake than have one more hot flash. And ovary death HURTS. My sad excuse for a period adds up to 3 days of excruciating pain during most months - I have been prescribed Loritabs because I can't function when it hurts like that. The hot flashes, night sweats, and mood swings are often just the icing on this nasty little cake. I've been told to take special vitamins, use pain rubs and patches, and I spend a majority of my period with a heating pad or in a hot tub... I have discovered to I can't take Any vitamins any more; I get violently ill (yes,Angel , I should try the Reliv. But every time I think I can order some , something happens) . I even bought a special tea while I lived in Lexington that was supposed to regulate the hormones. Now I'm just determined to live through this without alienating -or killing- my DH. He is a good sport about most of it though. But he really doesn't take kindly to my snapping at him just because he chose the wrong moment to pick on me. I'll just be so glad when this is over

Willow

2011-03-29T17:16:00.000-04:00

My cat has lost her freaking mind. She was spayed about a month ago, and she must have lost brain cells during the operation. She wants to be loved on all the time But she is anti-social and crabby. She chases the dogs. And she tries to sleep in the bed with DH and me. I think it is a plot to make Danny swell up like a balloon. She stole my watch the other night ... I'm not sure what she thought she was going to do with it. But I found it in the hallway with scratches on it from being batted around. She must have had fun . Now I sleep with my watch to keep the little thief from getting it. Also she has started drinking from the bathroom sink. I think she has spring fever But at least she can't act upon the impulse of nature. My cat has truly lost her mind... if anyone finds it , send it back to her . She really needs it.

Dogwood winter??!!??

2011-03-24T06:54:00.000-04:00

Aren't my magnolias pretty? I like them alot.
Why does it have to get so cold for the Dogwoods to bloom?? I like them as much as the next person, but I don't like it getting cold just for them to bloom. But the warm weather was nice and I keep telling myself that it will be awesome when it returns. I just got my new porch swing up yesterday. I might bundle up and swing on it for a few minutes today...everyday. So I'm gonna remind myself how nice it was when it was warm until it gets warm again.Maybe, DH and I will have the house unpacked and cleaned by the time it gets warm and I can do some yard work .

Spring!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-03-21T15:19:00.000-04:00

Spring has sprung! And with it comes that urge to spring clean everything in my path. For the past 2 weeks I have been very busy done a lot of nothing. I have a pinched nerve in my back and I was trying to let it heal. With the warm and beautiful days , I have decided that I have healed enough. I want to open all the doors and windows (well, the windows that will open) and toss all the junk to the curb or the fire pile... You'd be astounded at the stuff I throw out when I am in a mood like this one. If it has sat unused for 6 months, it goes out the door. I figure if I accidentally toss something useful then Wal-mart will sell me another one. I'll be doing one room a day all week . I still have boxes to unpack, but this is actually a blessing because I can go through it all , decide where it goes and arrange everything the right way.

Today is kitchen day. I have been working on it since 7 a.m. And I am no where near done But Dh works nights right now so I have plenty of time to finish it. OOO ! you gotta see what God gave me in my yard this weekend!

DH took this pic for me ... you can see the dewdrops on the petals! Just Gorgeous!

Ice!!??!!

2011-03-14T07:24:00.000-04:00

There is ice falling from the sky this morning. I walked my YD to the bus at the end of the driveway and the sleet started to fall . Fortunately, it started sleeting before we got off the porch. I can just imagine having to race back to the house for the umbrella. I may just make it a habit to take the umbrella with us every morning... even if the sun is shining bright and warm. This is KY after all. The weather is as fickle as my 12-year-old SD.

I yearn for the pleasant days of summer.. and yet I know that spring and summer bring thunder storms that we may have to walk through to get YD to the bus. But at least it will be warm and perhaps this constant ache will be relieved. I know spring is slowly winding its way here. I heard about a thousand frogs in the pond last night before bed time. Poor little fellers have woke up to some cold and unpleasant weather. But on the bright side, it is supposed to warm up later this week.

On a side note, one of my favorite things about this old country home passed yesterday... That's right, I am in mourning. I am mourning the lose of my front porch swing. DH was sitting on the swing when the back broke off and spilled him out backwards onto the porch floor. When I got to him (being alerted by YD yelling "O Papa " all the way through the house) he was flat on his back groaning and laughing. He hit his head twice on the banister as he fell . And for unknown reasons, found it hilarious that the porch swing died while he was sitting upon it. So now I am in search of a new porch swing. I happen to live in the land of old farmers and hand-crafters... It will not be long before I am swinging on my front porch again.

The rain

2011-03-05T12:16:00.000-05:00

Rain has a completely different smell in the country. When I lived in the city the rain always smelled like worms and dirt - very strong. Here in the country it smells clean and fresh. I know it is probably my imagination but it feels cleaner too. And even though this kind of weather makes me ache all over I love to listen to the rain falling on the tin roof of the house. It is very soothing. The weather man said we were under a flood warning because we have had too much rain fall lately. But til I float away i will be enjoying the sights , sounds and smells of another rainy ,spring-ish day here in La-la land.
Rain makes me drowsy. I almost said it made me lazy but I think I was born lazy so I can't blame it on the rain... Okay now I've got that Milly-Vanilly song in my head. Well today's background music is brought to you by Rain... there are alot of songs about the rain but my favorite is "Drip, drip drop little April showers..."
Today I have to makes sure all of my OD's clothes are clean to pack for her to go to voc/rehab on Monday. I am nervous and scared for her... she seems more excited than nervous, but that is okay I happen to be experiencing enough anxiety for both of us. I'm not ready to see her flex those freedom wings just yet. She may be 18 but I can't imagine her being gone all day everyday. But I am also so proud of her for getting into this program and wanting to learn and do more. It was just 2 years ago that she was eliciting promises from me and DH that we would never make her move out because the world was too big and scary. I praise God for the improvement in my OD. Okay I have rambled enough for one day and no matter how much I procrastinate the laundry won't wash itself.

Cobwebs

2011-03-03T10:27:00.000-05:00

I hate cobwebs. Actually, I hate any dirty nasty thing but cobwebs give me the chills. I thought I had rid my little country home of those pesky interlopers into my clean house But I found out differently this morning. As I was happily Facebooking with my trusty cup of coffee, I looked up into the corner of my living room and there hung the ghastly proof that I had some how failed to rid my home of condemned spider webs and dust. Ugh! Gross! So I retrieved my duster from the closet and set on a journey of removing and destroying any and all cobwebs. I went through every room, dusting corners cracks and crevices.I have waged war on those nasty , clinging bits and strands. I know there are more... I haven't dusted my daughters rooms today. And I know if they are everywhere else in the house , they will be found in those rooms too. Kat ran me out of her room . I was trying to dust while she was trying to sleep .... For some odd reason she didn't find that appealing at all. I tried to explain that I was freeing her room from the bondage of cobwebs... she threw a pillow at me. I guess she doesn't have the same issues with cobwebs that I do. Hmmmm Imagine that, my teenage daughter could care less about my battle with the evil cobwebs. Well it is late morning now and I think it is time for her to wake and greet the day... or I'll just whack her with my duster if she grumbles at me again.

After I finish dusting I have decided to set up the little girls' room the way I want it. I tried to give them a chance to unpack and set up the room to suit them... Apparently having a pile of boxes stacked in the corner suits them just fine; I am not pleased with that at all. I want everything in its place ( at least once a year in the girls' rooms and always in every room I used daily. It drives me bananas to try to search for something when it can not be found in its appointed place. I hate searching for anything. I want to be able to go directly to an item when I need it, not after 20 minutes of searching. Of course, my middle child (my youngun from another mother) has a entirely different view of the household rules. She figures if she can hide it , it is clean. If she can use it , it is hers. And if I tell her to do something , she can get a different opinion from her father (that doesn't work ,but she tries). She has no rules at her mother's house, except what her grandmother says goes. She has no chores as long as she keeps her grades up... I have seen her bedroom and I don't know how she gets in the bed at night. But , despite the lack of parental guidance , she is turning into an alright kid.

I went of on a tangent there that I never meant to get into . my point was that I am going to get those rooms dusted and the little girls' room unpacked before there morning is gone... Wow I better get hopping before the day really gets away from me!

I'm in the country again... back where I belong

2011-03-02T14:49:00.000-05:00

Wow after almost 2months, I just got my internet and phone hooked up here. We have been very busy working on the house. And I have enjoyed 99% of it. Of course there are somethings I could have done without. But anything worth having has to be worked for. I love sitting on my front porch and listening to the birds and other sounds of nature. No constant traffic, no sirens at all hours, no neighbors yelling . If my neighbors yell I can barely hear them because they are clear across the field. I love it here. We have had to redo all the water pipes, I have had to learn to build a wood fire, and through it all I have felt God's blessing on us. It is truly wonderful and I praise Him for His grace and Love. The overwhelming peace that has settled over our lives is tangible. I'll be back with more soon but for now I have more boxes to unpack and rooms to get in order... Fun stuff like that.

Moving

2011-01-10T10:19:00.000-05:00

2 1/2 years ago , we moved to the city. It was a big adaptation for this little country mouse to learn to live in the city. Now we are moving back to the same house in the same chunk of country we left because city livin' is expensive. We can live well on the same money that we are barely surviving on right now. And living well within our means is very important. Being able to give my girls the things they need and pay our bills is Very important. But at the same time I am so thankful for my time here. We have made some life long friends. I will forever have a church family here. And I have learned some very important lessons here. There is too much for me to see,hear,and experience for me to hide in the house all the time. My children have blossomed and grown independent in the past couple of years (even though my youngest wants me to Home school her so that she can stay home with me more LOL ... not gonna happen) As I have started thinking about moving back to the country, I have realized that I feel like I am going home. In Bath county, if someone gets shot, they were either cheating or hunting... here you can get shot walking down the wrong street. I am looking forward to hearing the birds sing at sunrise and hearing the frogs converse at sunset. Winters are hard no matter where you live when you have fybromyalgia But Spring and summer are times for running across the yard barefooted with a water hose chasing after your children and dragging the dogs out of the pond. Plus, I miss my family and friends A LOT. So I am letting the internet and phone be shut off this week so I can afford to move. I can't wait ... I am excited.

DH is being very nice to me now...

2011-01-03T10:07:00.000-05:00

This is what I posted as a comment on my previous post....
Thanks so much for your support guys... Dh realized he had screwed up when I gave him a good chewing on Saturday afternoon then said I was going to Angels if he didn't shape up. He apologized and gave me a wide path til I had calmed down. Maybe I should have done that to begin with but I hate fighting in front of the kids.

After I finished the original blog , I realized that I was allowing DH to treat me like crap because I felt physically ill and because I had Ashley in the car with us. So when DH came home on Saturday , I sent Ashley to her room and told DH what I felt, thought and what I planned to do about it. He chilled out real quick .

All is right in Sugaland again. Hope everyone had/has a very Happy New year.

The stress is killing us.

2011-01-01T14:27:00.000-05:00

I am emotionally drained. Last night, we went to church and had a wonderful time. DH was in a great mood. Then we left the church in search of food. It was 10:30 on New Year's eve and I knew pickin's would be slim. There was nothing open uptown except for the bars and pubs. So we went downtown - closer to home - where there are several 24 hour restaurants to choose from. Driving down the road I couldn't decide what I really wanted. I suggested we get Ashley something from Taco Bell but DH was in the wrong lane to go to Taco Bell . And thats when it started. He said some really hurtful things so I just sat there and didn't respond. He was concentrating on the traffic and telling me how sick he was of me being so in-decisive ... That's when he saw the look on mine and Ashley's face. He started yelling at me because I was "doing it again" and that he was only playing and I needed to get over myself. Unfortunately I started crying.. and that set him off worse. Ashley was trying to console me ,bless her loving heart. DH said if I didn't shut up and dry it up , he was done with me. Sick of the way I was acting just because he tried to play with me. I don't say mean things to him when I play. I don't say that I am "tired of him" when I play. And I don't yell when he gets upset because of something I've done . I apologize. I apologize all the time ... It seems like I am always doing something to make him mad. Last night I saw the New year come in alone. I thought, when I stopped crying and ordered my food like he told me to, everything was ok by the time we got home. I don't know what happened. After he stomped through the house casting me looks as if I were a roach, he announced that he was "done" and he was going to bed. I asked him what I did ... he just got mad and said something like "you know..." No I don't know , that's why I asked. He laid in bed for a long time. I fell and Ashley helped me. Then I had to get his help with Ashley's vent.. I got yelled at again. I'm tired , sad , and scared. I can't let him know that I am still hurt or he will yell at me again. I am SO tired. He knows that I love him... I guess, that's why he knows he can treat me like this. About 1 a.m. or so I went to get my house shoes so I could walk the dogs, thats when he realized I was walking with my cane again. He never asked why I had to use my cane But he did tell me to get out of his way and he would walk the dogs. Then he logged on the computer and commence to ignoring me. I was in so much pain that I just went on to bed. Later when I needed help, he was acting like nothing had ever happened. And this morning he went on like nothing ever happened and he was never angry at me. I don't know what to do. I'm too tired ,and in too much pain, to fight and argue. I pray and pray but maybe I am praying for the wrong things. I'm ready to give up. I can't seem to do anything right ... out side of the bedroom that is. But his expectations of me are a whole "nother" story.

Well I've ranted and I do feel a lot better. I started this blog thinking that I wasn't going to make it through the day without having a nervous breakdown. I feel almost human again and I know that I need to hold it together for my girls.

More Christmas fun

2010-12-19T22:53:00.000-05:00

Some of the most fun I (or anyone ) will ever have is to make gingerbread houses with the girls. We had a blast. And we got covered with icing and candy. But I am proud to say we got plenty on our creations too. Even Dad made one.. we have a miniature gingerbread village.

We all had our own house parts and the girls only needed a little help from the adults.Once we got the houses built , we let the creative juices flow.

The girls worked really hard on there confectionery abodes. And the results are good enough to eat...

But I wouldn't let anyone eat any... They have had enough sweets licking there fingers and eating the candy pieces. It was so much fun!

Tis the Season...

2010-12-17T21:56:00.000-05:00

It's the most wonderful time of the year. It's time for being snowed in , no school and crafts. Do cookies count as crafts? We are baking Christmas cookies tomorrow AND decorating them (my favorite part). I have also been busy painting. Painting is my favorite hobby. I will paint on anything that will stand still long enough for me to put a picture on it (just ask my hubby) But I also enjoy painting ceramic, plaster and pottery. This week I am painting Christmas moose. They are adorable. And they will look even better when I am done painting!

See we have been having all kinds of fun this week . Ash only had one day of school. And Aut came to visit early. Ash got to mail her letter to Santa... on the coldest day EVER! But her and Papa had such big plans of taking pictures of her mailing her latter and picking the best one for a Christmas card... They took the pictures and never said another thing about cards LOL. That my hubby's doing though he was frozen and realized maybe 8 degrees wasn't the best time to take pictures for a card because I ain't posing in that crap for nothing. But he got some nice pics even though we were all popsicles LOL

So now that we are practically ready for Christmas... all we got to do is lay under the Christmas tree and sing carols and wait for the Big guy to leave our presents. Well that not all... We must remember the true reason for the season and praise Him for His grace. Ashley loves the part about how the wise men search for Jesus for years just to give Him gifts and praise His birth. Personally, I love the part about the Angels singing with voices as mighty as the sea about our Lord's birth.

God bless you all . I pray that peace finds all of you this season.

Christmas time is here

2010-12-11T22:57:00.000-05:00

Here are the pics of the tree and of Tigger. O and I wanna send a big THANK YOU to Angel for keeping me warm earlier this week. Your couch sleeps like poop but I sure appreciate all you did for us! Love ya GF. Here are those pics:

Ok. As I said Tigger has seen better days... His wing has been broken off for years, I don't remember when his horn broke off. His head and his tail have been (re)glued onto his body... But how many 18-year old ornaments do you have in Pristine condition??? Besides it isn't how he looks , it is all the memories that come with him...

My Christmas wish is that each and every one of you are happy and you find that you can appreciate the holidays a little more because you have someone who loves you by your side.

Thanks Amber!!!!

2010-12-05T18:07:00.001-05:00

Check out my new background and stuff and it all so cool. Thank you to Amber, who did an awesome job!
Ok. I know I haven't blogged in a really long time but it is hard to blog when you get so far down in the dumps you can't even see daylight. But I am better now . I can't say I am 100% But I am forgiven for forgetting on whom I rely. God is my source and I know I can rest easy in Him. So, I may not blog every day but I will blog often.
I got a job while I was away from the blogging world. I was working for a computer company. I didn't get past the first week before I had bronchitis, my blood sugar was 400 and I was depressed from being so sick. Depression is a side effect of Fybromyalgia and Diabetes. There are just times that I am down in the dumps. The government says we make too much for me to continue to get my disability check, but we don't make enough to pay our bills. So why am I not going back to work tomorrow? Because of their policies on prayer ... For one and because I can take a hint. If I am going to get THAT sick from 1 week working (there) then I would be terrifically stupid to push my health any farther. Yes, Angel, I have decided to get the Reliv for me and Kat after Christmas. If you haven't checked Angel out,she is my best friend and a great blogger... Go see for yourself. Anyhoo, back to why I am not going back to work tomorrow. Just because my hubby makes more than the approved limit amount for me to receive disability doesn't make me instantly able to rush out into the workforce again... I need to regroup and give my health more consideration. But the biggest reason I am not going back to (there) is that I was told twice in a week that (they) frown on employees saying grace in their cafeteria. I was quietly thanking God for my food, I was not making a spectacle.I will do a lot for a company that I work with But I WILL NOT deny my God. I have said grace over my meals for years and i won't stop because someone else "frown's upon that type of behavior"... just saying. Now I don't want this to turn into a religious debate. To each his own and may God bless you in it. I am not the judge. I am just saying this is why I am not working for the company that I will not name. And if you happen to know the name , Don't put it on my blog. They track it, I've seen how they do it (with keyword searches) and I don't want them sending haters onto my blog. I can get enough people riled up without having (them) pay someone to stir crap for me. Yes, that is what they do... people get paid to look up their company name all day and they get paid incentives for finding and ending bad publicity.It is creepy really.

Hey this has taken an ugly turn... Let's get back on track. I am feeling much better now. I had bronchitis for about 2 weeks and but as time went by my blood sugar went back down and my lungs healed. When I next chose a jobs/career , I will be more aware of what stress does to my body and adjust accordingly.
Is everyone ready for Christmas (or whatever holiday you celebrate this month) ??? Me neither! I have one gift. and at least a dozen more to get. Danny and I have agreed to not get anything for each other , we are just getting gifts for the girls. The girls and Danny put up the tree today. It looks awesome. Maybe tomorrow I will post a pic. You can help me decide if this is Tiggers last year LOL. I'll explain it tomorrow.

Insomnia

2010-09-27T02:33:00.000-04:00

Insomnia sucks! I don't suffer from it as often as I used to , but on the rare occasion that I can't snuggle down in my nice warm bed next to my loudly snoring hubby, it wreaks havoc on my entire day/night. Usually i have the exact opposite problem . I am tired all the time and I sleep alot because fibromyalgia brings chronic fatigue over to play . I can't find a happy medium. Either I sleep too much or I don't sleep at all. Thank God for coffee. If it weren't for coffee, my 9-yr-old would never go to school because her Mom wouldn't get out of bed to get her there. If it wasn't for coffee my bi-polar child would have free run of the house without having to take her meds... Uhmmmmmmm, not happening in this life. And my hubby wouldn't have his clothes ironed ever. I iron when i can't sleep. And there is a definite difference in just not being able to sleep and the evil of insomnia. With insomnia , you can be so tired you desperately want to sleep but the sand man has forgotten your address. Laying there in the bed wishing for sleep because I can't sleep is the worst kind of torture. Then when dinner is about done,and I need to set the table OR when dinner is over and the 9-yr-old needs a shower... That is when the crash comes. Dinner is burnt , the youngun is smelly and I am out of order on the couch oblivious to every thing around me. That is when I rely on the competence of my hubby. He will supply or salvage dinner, He will set the temp in the shower, He will drag my butt to the bed if I am snoring too loud on the couch. But for now there is no crash in sight. And I get to use all this strange energy to for housework which isn't getting done because I decided now would be a good time ( @ 2:15 a.m. ) to let my creative juices pour out in a blog.And since I think they are cute here is what my family looks like sleeping... Well not Danny if I posted a pic of him sleeping that may be ammunition for retaliation.

The drama princess ...

They are sharing the keyboard shelf.

Been a long time

2010-09-13T13:47:00.000-04:00

I enjoy blogging when I can convince myself that my thoughts need to be placed in a blog for anyone to see. I enjoy my privacy a lot. And I was raised that I should shut up until my presence was required But my opinion never mattered. That's why my girls have grown into opinionated blather mouths LOL. No really I love their freedom in thought and sharing what is on their minds. As I am raising my girls I am constantly reminded of how different our up-bringing is and how much happier they are. I listen to what they have to say- even when they are just being silly; because I know if I don't listen to them every time, I may miss something important. Teenagers speak in code. Well actually so do tweens, but the teen code has evolved into a more intricate weave of jumbly-squeak. My autistic teen (like every teens I am told) speaks in puzzles and codes and apologetic mush almost all of the time now. Aspie princess is 18 but her emotional maturity is that of a 14-year old. I have a feeling that she will have to go through every phase of life twice before she overcomes that particular milestone. That's okay if we (and i mean I will be there every step of the way every time) have to travel the same worn and weary paths 5 or 15 times as long as Aspie princess is continuing to improve I will listen to her and laugh with her and take care of her. Then there is my tweens - for the purpose of simplicity from this point forward Ash will be tween 1 and Aut will be tween 2 (kinda like thing one and thing two only A LOT more distructive). Tween 1 is in a constant state of drama. This is a serious case of love the child , hate the deed, at times. I loathe drama I like for my little world to be as calm as I can get it with bipolar aspie princess around. But I must admit that the Aspie princess has improved greatly since they started her on lithium. All the other meds had her raging constantly. And now that the stress levels have lowered to a dull hum , the drama was wildly reduced until Tween one and Tween two started back to school. Everything is a dramatic event in tween 1's life. Homework can cause an upheaval of epic proportion. Tween 2 has a new boyfriend every two weeks ... I am caught in a episode of All My Children and all I can do is laugh. I know we have to sound very silly to the neighbors sometimes. This weekend tween 2 was here for her visit (she lives with her Mom , I am the Other-Mother) . Out came the make-up and nail polish, the glitter and goop - tween 1 and tween 2 exploded all over my house. Aspie princess piled right in with them... she's been doing that a lot lately. After they put on enough shellac for a Jan Crouch /Tammy Faye Baker make-up special, out came the barbies. Now both tweens and the Aspie princess have outgrown Barbies ,But They still love to do the hair and change the dresses. Within 3 hours that bedroom was covered from corner to corner with make-up, hair bows, and half naked Barbies. And I had to ruin all the fun by telling them to clean up their mess. I love being a mom to 3 great girls , I love being a wife to my wonderful husband. I praise God for my family and all his blessings on me everyday.

There they are... Aren't they all just wonderful !

WIMTS- I've been really sick lately

2010-08-25T09:46:00.000-04:00

WIMTS Wednesday is brought to you in part by Angel @ angel believes and brittany ciara @ not your average teen . So hop on in and join the fun . Come on it's easy click the linky then linkup with us after you write what you meant to say.

Six months ago when the doctor told me that I have fibromyalgia and needed to take meds... I said well that explains a lot. WIMTS was "So thats why every cell in my body is screaming " Monday when the doctor said "Dorothy you are Diabetic" ... I said that's not good ,but I'll handle it... WIMTS was just shoot me now! I'm not handling crap , I'm giving it to God. Then I'll start living a healthier life to reflect the bounty and healing I have received.

So this is how it is going to be... I feel horrid most every day. WIMTS was Thank you God for giving me another day. Thank you to my BFF for always being there to call and hash out my thoughts. I love you and appreciate you. Always. In case some of you don't know who I am talking about ; Angel is my real life BFF and she is one awesome woman.

When I say that I will try to get back to blogging more than once a week ; I meant to say... I'm sorry I will try to drag my butt away from Pogo more often just to let you know I am still hopping (LOL) But I am a badge hound and it is going on 10 on a Wednesday ... that means Pogo badges are about to start for another week. See Ya guys I'm hopping on my pogo now...BOING...BOing...Boing...

WIMTS ... Back to school

2010-08-11T01:57:00.000-04:00

When I met Ash's teacher , Ms. Commodore and she was talking to us about all the Wonderful things she had in store for her third graders. And that she was so happy that I decided to be a homeroom Mother again this year. I siad yes of course we are very excited too. WIMTS was "AYE,Aye -Commodore " Okay maybe not the nicest reaction making mental fun of her name but she was very VERY outgoing.
When Ash told me that she wanted to look just like her new teacher someday ; I said that is wonderful honey. Did you notice her shoes? Ash is infatuated with heeled shoes. High heels ,low heels, clogs and slings - she loves them all. WIMTS was "That's great Honey but Ms. Commodore is a black woman and you are so white, short men follow you around singing. You can be as pretty as Ms. Commodore but no matter what God won't change your gene pool. My sweet child is too funny. We have raised her to be so non-racial that she is almost anti-white. Not that I blame her... I know some White people and I don't like them much either LOL.

When Danny laughed at me after i had fallen in the shower and said I looked like an angry little girl sitting there in the water. I said gee thanks butthead, get out of my bathroom... WIMTS was gee thanks buthead, get outta my bathroom. You see what I say all too often resembles exactly what floats through my head. No fluff, no suga, just what it is. That's just me.

Okay that was fun wasn't it?Now join the fun. Click the link at the top there and tell us what you meant to say then link up . Not hard. If you get lost have your kid show you how... that's what i did.

I have felt awful all evening

2010-08-11T01:23:00.000-04:00

I have been feeling very ... unwell all evening. Then while I was helping Ash clean her room, a terrible migraine came upon me. I got dizzy, disoriented and light-headed within minutes of that migraine hitting me. I just felt awful. My BFF, Angel, called me during that odd episode and I vaguely remember speaking to her. But it felt like I was fighting through a thick veil just to hear what she was saying. Then I was out for like 20 minutes. I thought I had been out for hours but then I saw the clock and realized that I had only passed out for a little while. I got up and ate an egg(protein )so I could take an ibuprofen. Then my big dumb butt got in the shower... Have you ever done something kinda dumb and then wonder what got into you? I was still dizzy and light-headed and I got into the shower.YEP! I fell down in the shower tonight and hurt myself very much badly. I hit my shoulder, my knees, and my head ( that really helped that migraine... NOT). I also hurt my back and hips. I am a big ole mess of screaming pain right now and I can't sleep.
O I almost forgot to mention my dear hubby running to the rescue - then laughing at me. He really needs to find a more constructive way of handling stress and fear OR he needs to fix his sense of humor. I saw nothing funny in the situation AND I told him that. He just laughed at me more and told me that I looked like an angry little girl. To give him credit though he got wet helping me up ,rinsing me off and getting me out of the tub and he never said a word about it . But he is still a meanie poopoo head for laughing at me ;)

This has been a super crazy week!

2010-08-06T12:36:00.000-04:00

Okay before I get started, let me make sure I have everything! Coffee...check,headband( I have to be able to see the little words without interruption)...check,glasses(without those I can't even see the monitor)...check,and my daughter is satisfied for the moment. Now I can tell you my tale of the broken princess(LOL).

On Sunday, we went to church like we always do. Then Danny made lunch ,while I had my media shout nappy, and then we ate like starving folk like we do every Sunday. After dinner, the little girls went out to play on the trampoline . They played for a few hours having a grand time. Then Ash fell onto Auttie's leg. She never screamed or yelled. She cried when it hurt and she couldn't raise herself with that arm. Auttie came to us and said,"Ash is crying she hurt her arm." Danny ran outside to check on Ash and she was just sitting there in the middle of the trampoline, crying. He brought Ash to me and her arm was just a little swollen near the wrist. We put ice on it to see if the swelling would go away;but the longer she sat there, the more it hurt her. The emergency room visit revealed a broke arm (the radius just 3 inches above her right wrist). They gave her lortab elixir , a splint , and gave us the number to one of the best orthopedic doctors in Lexington. We called the office of Trevor Wilkes MD as soon as they opened. I made Danny stay home from work that day just to help me take care of Ash and Kat. Auttie went home Monday (it was time ,had nothing to do with the accident) But I digress ... The Ortho couldn't see Ash until 8am the next morning. My poor baby had to contend with that splint all day Monday. I sent Kat to her grandmother so that she wouldn't start feeling jealous because of the attention Ash was getting with that broken arm. Kat needed a break from me anyway... not like she wasn't rushing us to get her there(LOL).

On Tuesday I took Ash to Dr. Wilkes. She fell asleep in the room while waiting on him to come in to see her. When the doctor came in he immediately won Ash's affections by asking to see the Princess' broken arm. He called her "princess" through the entire appointment. He even called an order down to the casting and splinting for the Princess Ash... She loved it. Then we had an animated discussion about what color she would have on her cast. I know it is her arm and should be her decision. But I wanted her cast to still look clean and reasonable when school starts on the 11th. She wanted a glow in the dark off-white. I told her she could have that for her 2nd cast.But I needed to have another color (a stay clean or hide the dirt color) for the first cast. The princess got a hot pink cast. She still wants that glow in the dark cast, and she will get it in two weeks.

Now we are taking it easy and making sure she has no more pain than necessary. Along with trying to get all the swimming in we could and they wanted to bounce on that trampoline every evening, they kept me busy having all kinds of summer fun. Then we've been busy taking care of that broken arm. It has been crazy,crazy, craaaaaazy. Finally, I am glad school is starting back. Maybe that will calm things down around here... eventually.

It is 5 a.m. I should be in bed!

2010-08-01T05:02:00.000-04:00

I should be in bed, but I have been having some physical problems lately. I have fibromyalgia and sometimes the pain causes chronic fatigue... And sometimes it causes chronic insomnia. It is a potluck of aggravating symptoms. I'm just saying this so you know what I mean when I say my back and hips hurt... They always hurt. Usually I take this with a grain of salt and praise God for healing me - I used to be in a lot worse shape. While I am still praising God everyday,all day; tonight(err this morning) I am also wishing that I could sleep.

I work Media Shout at my church and I love every minute of it. Media Shout is the power point effects and backgrounds that you see projected onto the screens behind the pulpit (and on the sides as the case is with my church). We project song lyrics, important points from the sermon and scripture. I have an important job within the service. And if I'm not 100% , I could have some serious problems... randomly flashing statements, lyrics and wildly changing backgrounds can be very distracting. My job is to quietly enhance to service in the background. When things go wrong we become spotlight stealers and that is never good.

Ok so I have resigned myself to staying up ... bring on the coffee and a shower. I can do this. 5 hours of sleep is enough LOL

Naughty or nice... I got an award woot!!!!

2010-07-22T12:30:00.000-04:00

My BFF, Angel, gave me an award. I don't know if she is saying that I am naughty or nice. I think I am a little both sometimes.Angel got it from her friend ,Dionne, and then Angel gave it to me - and a few other nice/naughty folk.But this is my blog And... I wanna talk about me , I wanna talk about I, wanna talk about number one - O me O my, What I think, what I want , what I like , what I don't , what I see... Umm , sorry I broke out into song there- happens quite often.

There it is It is mine now. Bwhhahahahahaha. The rules are simple. Answer some questions, give the button to 5 (if I'm nice) and 10 (IF I'm naughty). So let's get this party started.

What is the silliest prank you ever played on someone?O wow I am not much of a prankster. One April Fool's I told my sister I was pregnant again. She almost had another brain aneurysm - I think.

2. If you could take a trip anywhere out of the country where would you go? Why? Australia I want to see the Opera house on the bay and hear a prima dona sing there

3. Who plays the most influential role in your life? God,of course

4. Are you ok with your significant other being friends with an ex? Yes I know I can trust my hubby.

5. Favorite candle scent? Apple pie, blackberry cobbler,

6. Next movie you're excited about seeing? Salt. it sounds very interesting

7. You must ban one word from the dictionary and all usage, to be no longer uttered or written. What word do you ban? Hate, without hate we wouldn't have these people who are racist or murders or wife/child beaters

8. Do you have any relatives in jail?Not recently that I know of

9. What crazy fads were popular when you were a teenager. It was the 80's.

10. Have you ever been mentioned in a newspaper or on TV? I was in the newspaper alot when I was in High school for one award or the other with chorus and art.

Ok there's the questions and the answers ... Now to give these puppies away:

Bat Crap Crazy

Adoption of Jane

One Cluttered brain

The world as I see it

Things I can't say

Old School

2010-07-21T05:25:00.000-04:00

I love summer.

I love watching my girls play and laugh. The neighbors all tell me that they enjoy hearing the sounds of my girls playing , they are the only ones who actually play outside in my neighborhood.

2010-07-21T04:53:00.000-04:00

Well it is time for WIMTS wiuth Angel and Brittany.

When Danny asked me why I was awake at 3 in the morning, I said "couldn't sleep".

What I meant to say was...

I wouldn't be up at this horrific hour if you would stay on your side of the bed with the big' ole long legs of yours. That's right grasshoppa you ran me out of the bed again.

When Danny asked me how I was feeling this evening, I said fine.

What I meant to say was...

I hurt. I always hurt but that's nothing new. With Fybromyalgia, everything just hurts - but I am fine. I don't hurt like i used to thanks to God and the medication he lead my doctor to give me.

When Katie asked me for the 50th time "what's wrong mommy,what's wrong??" I said for the 50th time "nothing baby"

What I meant to say was that is absolutely nothing that i will share with my autistic child. She may see the pain flash across my face but I will never explain to such a naive child about my flashbacks... There are just some things better left unsaid.What I meant to say to her was Thank you for bringing me back to reality where I belong with my children and my happy home.

Well that's enough sharing for me...

What I mean to say is

I'm sorry for unloading on you. It has been a rough day. Thanks for listening.

Now follow the link and do your own WIMTS

We have less than a month til the first day of school :(

2010-07-20T12:15:00.000-04:00

We have had so much fun this summer. The time has flown by and too soon Ashley and Autumn will be back in school. I love having Ashley wake me up in the mornings instead of the alarm clock. With either swimming or just hanging around the house doing chores, we all love spending time together. Ashley is 9 now but sometimes (much more rare now that she is a "big girl") she still wants to snuggle and take a little nap with me. We enjoy walking to to store a block away to get a pack of gum. I am really going to miss spending all day with my girls. Katie will be home with me, so I won't have an empty nest.But I don't want summer to be over so soon. There is only about 3 weeks left for us to swim, jump on the trampoline and play all day. We have to hurry and have loads more fun before school starts! Here a some pics for you to enjoy until I get back...

Autumn and Ashley jumping

Katie and her friend swinging at the park.

Sidewalk chalk art

OKay as I said I gotta go. We have to have more fun! HEY YOU! Stop reading and go have fun!

2010-07-16T15:00:00.000-04:00

Brittany wants to know what we got from our mommas...

I got my deep desire to be the best Mom that I could ever be. Mom instilled in all 7 of us a deep respect for each other, ourselves and our children. She taught me about a mother's love and the love God has for us. She had the patience of Job while raising me. I love her deeply (even when she meddles LOL) She also gave me a fine sense of style ... Ain't that hair gorgeous??? A glorious bouffant. She would wear me out with a broom if she knew I was picking on her lmbo.

My lovely momma turned 75 this year and she has devoted 58 of those years to her children. God has blessed us indeed .

Okay time to link up with the blog bash and show us your Mommas or at least what your momma gave ya.

We've been adopted.

2010-07-16T14:09:00.000-04:00

This is the little girl chihuahua that adopted us day before yesterday. Danny calls her Squishy (watch Finding Nemo and you'll understand); I call her "Here doggy"... original right? She isn't allowed in the house but I feed and water her every morning.

This is Hunny. She is my brain-damaged Shih Tzu. She was born with a mental and physical disability. And she is the reason I cannot have "here Doggy" in the house. She gets very upset when other animals are in her space. Except for Darby...

Darby is my 15 year-old West Highland Terrier. Yeah she is a proud member of the Old Ladies Club. So am I. We have weekly meetings in the bedroom to count Z's. Darby usually counts more than me. Hunny is a honorary member even though she is just 4 years-old. She could enter the Sleep Master Olympics.So could my cat, Willow.

She is the serious one of the bunch. Unless she is picking on Darby,she is asleep. She sits in the kitchen and meows until Darby comes to find her. Then she grabs Darby's undercoat so Darby will drag her across the linoleum. If I ever get a pic of that ,I will have to show you. But I have other funny pics to show you. Like this:

Ain't her hair to die for! oooo I have more...

BTW, she is looking at me like I've lost my mind b/c I am laughing my tail off at her hair. She found none of that nearly as funny as I did. But those are my furbabies and my special guest.

Wait there's more...

Okay now I'm done. See aren't pets fun!

Showin' the Love

2010-07-15T10:47:00.000-04:00

There are so many wonderful bloggers here in blogville. And I have read some very cool blogs thanks to Brittany's Blog Bash. Since I am new to blogville, I haven't had the chance to really get to know anyone.But here are some buttons of some fine blogging folk... check them out; if you don't know them,follow them so you can get to know them. There are some seriously good blogs out there.

You may be wondering why I chose these bloggers instead of any others, Because ~~I am on loritabs and their buttons are pretty~~ ummm....I just like them ( i like others too but I can't focus)Okay hear is my shameless plug for brittany... I love your blog . You are a very cool young lady. And I have enjoyed the crap outta myself doing your Blog Bash- Thank you for not being the average teen.

And now here's Brittanny's button:

Ok I'm gonna go play in Loritab land now. Wheeeee...

My Life Song

2010-07-14T13:25:00.000-04:00

Rascal Flatts' Everyday is my Life Song. Danny and I have been through so much together and Everyday I thank God for him. And he is sweet enough to say that he is the blessed one. I don't know where I would be now or what condition I would be in ,for that matter, if God hadn't sent me Danny. He's my beloved boomerang , I tried 3 times to throw him away and he kept coming back. That makes me the blessed one because when I finally figured out that my life was supposed to be one with his... Danny was there waiting for me. I guess I should have said originally that we put each other through a lot of needless pain. But now by the grace of God , we have learned how to be there for each other ... Everyday.

Okay now it is your turn . Click on the link and tell us all about your Life song. Come on... it's painless, I promise!

2010-07-13T22:08:00.000-04:00

Ok, Britteny asked us to rekindle our high school years.

I don't have any experiences that really stand out for me, not one particular day.

But I can tell yall about one of my favorite memories.

I got pregnant when I was a junior in high school. I had to grow up pretty fast becoming a mommy and all. My favorite memories are during those times I spent in the nursery with my daughter. I spent all my free time during my senior year in the nursery. I remember Katie cuddling on my shoulder and not wanting that hour to end. Then there were the days when all the babies were awake and running/crawling all over everything. If one baby sat in someones lap, we had 5 more trying to get into that same lap. It was one of the sweetest moments and a big learning experience. Having another student get me out of class because katie wouldn't stop crying. She woke the rest of the babies and refused to be quiet until she saw me. Those are my best high school experiences... seeing my baby's face light up every time I walked into the nursery. And learning so much about being a mommy.

Okay that's mine. Now click on the linky thingy and join in the fun.

2010-07-12T11:40:00.000-04:00

1.) Why do you blog?

I never considered blogging until Angel told me I should blog.... I guess that is because I run my mouth so much.If you get us (Angel and I ) together talking to one another it sounds like a gaggle of wild geese in a flogging fit.

2.) What do you blog about?

Everything and a whole lot of nothing. My girls have become excellent blog fodder .... Katie is Autistic with bi-polar disorder and that puts a tailspin on life occasionally. Then there are the tweens Autumn (12) and Ashley (9).... OH! The Drama of it all.

3.) What do you find to be the biggest reward you get from blogging?

Thinking that maybe there is someone out there that hears me... Not through the filter of Mom or wife,just me. Plus I have always enjoyed reading the other blogs and there are some great people in blogville.

4.) How long have you been blogging?

One week ago on July the 5th was my first blog... I'm a newbie.

5.) Let's hear the story behind your blog title! :)

My hubby calls me Shug , Dot is my nickname (family and such) , and sugadot has been my username for about 5 years... everything is a little sweeter with some Suga LOL ...

Okay I guess that is it for now. Join the fun! Go and click the linky ... You know you want to.

Good morning

2010-07-12T07:50:00.000-04:00

I've not blogged all weekend;mainly, because I have nothing to blog about. I lead a very uneventful life and like it that way. I could blog about going to church. But I run Media Shout every service and that is rather uneventful also. Well except when noone follows the service flow and I have to keep up with them.My kids keep me hopping . But alot of that is personal excitement, nothing to blog about. I get up in the morning, drink my coffee, do what little housework I feel like doing . And I stay still if I am hurting a lot. But I recently got a mani and a pedi. The girl painted fireworks and USA on the big toe...very cool... here take a looky.

My Girls

2010-07-09T11:20:00.000-04:00

Have you ever looked over at your children and thought " Wow! How did that happen? " I had one of those moments last night. I came in from the kitchen and I had 3 little women sitting on my couch. And they are gorgeous ( Danny get the shotgun! ) ,intelligent (well, that will weed out some of the shotgun fodder) and loving. All 3 are very mature for their ages. That could prove to be problem with Aut, she's twelve and built like a brick outhouse.She is 12 going on 20. How did this happen ??? Is her mother giving her miracle grow in the Capn' Crunch?? I swear her ta-tas were not like That the last time she stayed the week with us. Starting to look like a tween Dolly Parton . Then there is Katie ,well, she got her momma's bosoms and backside. I don't know if that is a blessing or a curse ,but I know she blushes every time some little dude tries to talk to her. Then she runs back to me (she just saved your life boy!) Katie is 18 years old and by all rights able to make her own mistakes But she has asperberger's and bi-polar disorder ,and she is thereby covered within my protection forever! She tells me some boy is bothering her and I automatically puff up. Ya'll know how a grizzly will stiffen and expand to show an intruder her displeasure - puff up. Of course that just leaves Ashley to consider. She has been too big for her little breaches since birth. I like to blame this on her father because I was neeeeeeever a trouble magnet like her. I had to run a little romeo off the other day. Ashley was jumping on the trampoline and he had stars in his eyes. And believe me , it isn't like these girls are innocent little lambs being stalked by big bad wolves. I know they encourage the attention. It is my job to keep these boys alive (because Danny will kill somebody over his girls LOL) and to keep my girls out of trouble as much as possible. From the looks of things my job is getting harder by the day.
OKay I'm off to K-mart to buy long skirts, bulky sweaters,duct tape (for Ashley's mouth) and shotgun shells.

What I meant to say Wednesday with Angel

2010-07-07T01:22:00.000-04:00

Okay once again my BFF has gotten me into something I don't know how to do But as always she has offered to help me through it Angel invited me to do this blog and she talked me into doing the carnival.Ya'll link up and join the fun.

The other day my hubby asked "why is the trash overflowing?" I said "i don't know" Then he said "well ,that's not a very good answer is it?" Hmmmmm Well what I meant to say was .... The freaking trash is overflowing because you, my dear hubby, haven't taken out it to the herbie curbie. I can't do it because the bags are too big and the steps are too steep. I can't do it because you,my dear hubby,will yell at me if I get half way out the door with it somehow without falling down. The trash is overflowing because I am the only one doing the housework and I have been told not to do that part.
When Katie yells that she can't go take her shower because all of her clothes are dirty (and obviously thus she must remain dirty... ) I tell her that it will be okay; I will take care of her clothing problem. What I meant to say is... Your clothes wouldn't be dirty if you took them to the laundry room. Instead you have them spread across the room like they are protecting the carpet... from what your stinky feet. You are 18 and you ain't broke. Pick up your clothes and take them to the laundry room. Get in the shower or I'm gonna chase you around with a water hose.

Last week, my sister said," Dorothy,I am giving 'the eyes' for a reason" I said "So..." What I meant to say...Like I care if you give me that look. Here I got one too and it is almost identical to yours but I used My Eyes. Thanks but I already have a pair that can do the same thing. I don't care why you think you need to give me "your eyes" ,I am going to keep believing what I believe and doing what I believe should be done. You are not my mother , stay out of this.

When Angel said "and you get to do What I meant to say Wednesday as your very first carnival... " I said ,"Uh OK" What I meant to say was... WHAT have you lost your mind. I don't know how to do that! I barely know how to write a blog.

And there you have it . The rest is "a favorable decision" to live and let live.

Katie did it ! See my button? Thank You ,Katie!

2010-07-06T15:31:00.000-04:00

Katie , my 18-year -old , fixed my tag for me. I think it is awesome and we are doing the super happy dance. Katie may be autistic BUT she is super intelligent. She can make a computer sing, dance, roll-over and fetch. Now if she could figure out how to make my computer do the laundry and take out the trash ... I would be ecstatic. I am so proud of her. So go ahead and take my button. And please remember that Autistic kids aren't dis-abled, they are differently-abled. You just gotta find their gift.

My 1st blog... pop me easy folks I don't want this to hurt !

2010-07-06T01:18:00.000-04:00

Angel , my BFF 4-ever, talked me into blogging.You will come to realize that Angel has talked me into many,many things. Some of them that got me into ... ummm,interesting situations; and some that got us both in hot water. But what are true friends for, right? If ya don't know her, please head on over to her blog. She is a total hoot. Ok a little about me. I am severely dyslexic so if something looks a little hinky - blame it on Angel, it's angelspeak and has nothing to do with my dyslexia...

I have 3 beautiful daughters. They are 18,12 and 9. I know that is odd names for children,but it is fun this way. They change every year. My twelve-year-old is my yougun from another mother. She is my little woman... twelve going on thirty-two. She is so in love with Edward Cullen. She whimpers every time she sees a pic of Robert Patterson ... what does that say about me that I know the guys real name....hmmmmm. My 18-year-old has Aspberger's and bi-polar disorder.She writes computer programs like I write my name.It is just that easy for her;she amazes me. And then there is the 9-year-old. She is a total Diva. We are talking Lights,Camera,DRAMA! There are days when all 3 of them get going on the hormonal roller coaster and I feel like Alice at the Mad Hatter's tea party .We are positively mad... but all the best people are.

Then there is my hubby- my magic clown. Sometimes he is so surrounded by females - even the dogs and cat are femmes - that he starts to drown in estrogen. I figure a good dowsing ,every once in awhile, is healthy for his perspective on life. But he takes all in stride. He is an electrician after all... He can make anything out of nothing and nothing out of anything. He is a mighty man of God and the love of my life - second only to God. And I praise God everyday for my boomerang - love. That needs explaining I suppose. I tried 3 times to throw My hubby away. I made him leave. I was horrible to him. I even divorced him in his darkest hour. And he came back, 3 times; despite seeing me at my ugliest, he still loved me. I took the hint from God that He had brought us together and no man ,Or crazed woman , shall tear us apart.

I let go and let God and the path of my life became so much clearer.

But hey that is enough back ground stuff... unless you want to ask me a question. Go ahead and ask, I don't bite... too hard.

Me surrounded by my girls